First things first: I'm thinking of starting an Animorphs Dressing Room Game. Would anyone be interested in joining? If I did it, should I do it on LJ or Insane Journal? (If you don't know what a Dressing Room Game is, it's just a place for any kind of characters from a fandom to interact - without having to apply or do drama.)

Second, yesterday's Lesson of the Day:

No, two Pop Tarts is not enough to keep an energy drink from going straight through you... and those warnings on the can are there for a reason.

I'm fine now, so nobody panic, but yesterday I had some wicked chest pains. I almost started crying during Law class, to give an idea of how bad they were. Then I thought I was going to pass out on the way to the cafeteria after Law. Luckily, I didn't, and I felt much better after I had some lunch - but to cut a long story short, I won't be having energy drinks for a while.

So, like, last night I couldn't sleep. And because I'm me, this obviously meant that the solution was to write fanfic until I passed out or something. Right? Okay, so I tried doing that.

And once again my Elfangor and Ax plotbunnies refused to write themselves in a way that was not total suck. (Although I think I may have finally figured out a solution to that.)

So then I decided I'd just switch fandoms totally and write some silly fic about various people flirting with Darkdevil because flustered violent vigilantes are win. Right? Okay, right, so then I tried to do that. Then somehow it instead morphed into this epic fic series of how, instead of being flirted at, Darkdevil makes friends with half of the MC2 by being an antisocial woobie. (Shut up, it's my fic, it can work like that.)

Then after having spent almost all night writing most of the first chapter, my computer froze. In an AWESOME MOVE OF AMAZING INTELLIGENCE I didn't save the damn thing. Not even once. I did, however, manage to re-write about half of it! So hurrah for me.

Still, I can't help but feel like I should've worked on my "Victorious kills all the Runaways and Gert angsts about it" epic instead.

An-y-way, I really need to get ready and go to work. Ta-ta!

Hey, guys! Have some Adorable Animorphs Fanart! (nyonyo, I think you'll really like the second one). I can't take credit for it, but isn't it great? Next to this pic, this artist's style has to be the closest to how I imagined the Animorphs.

And can someone explain to me why the Animorphs section at FFN still doesn't have a "search by character" option? It's really annoying that I can't search for Ax fics since his name is too short for the search engine.

Four things:

1. I'm going to try and finish my 1sentence Marco/Ax stuff on, oh, zero sleep? I'm certain the results will be hilarious.

2. I'm kind of stuck on a fanfic idea. Fellow Ani-fans, how do you think Estrid would react to being ordered to go back to Earth?

3. Just finished reading all of the Venom arc in Spider-Girl. Instead of making me want to write May-Venom fanfic, which is the effect I assumed said reading would have, now I just want to write about Darkdevil and Doc Magus having Big Gay Mystical Adventures.

4. I can't watch the Spider-Man 3 trailer because my Quicktime is broken. QUICKTIME, I HATE YOU SO.

Well, that was fun. Quick, someone stroke my ego and tell me it wasn't too out-of-character.

As for the Animorphs game, give it a week. I'd say give me a day or two but with the possibility of a new job, I don't want to make a promise I might break. Though if I take any longer than that, you can all beat me with my cane.

BUT JUST SO YOU KNOW~~! Ange, I did get your application. Li, I will try and email you the details tomorrow. I'm still kind of working on the backstory and my applications but I'm hoping I'll get it all done soon. Sorry I'm made of sloth.

...Time to take a nap now, I think. I ded from insomnia. =/

PS: Spider-Girl and Nextwave were good reads. Definitely worth the cash.
PPS: I hate my comic store for being so late.

So, if I were to ressurect my dead post-54 Animorphs RPG, would anyone be interested in playing? What if I also kick-started an MC2 game as well?

I MAKE NO PROMISES, THOUGH. I'M JUST SAYING. Who'd want to play? Or help me mod, because I am a lazy bastard?

ETA: kleenexcow, you would forever and always be my Marco because that application was amazing. If you think you can put up with my incredible laziness, that is.

Best. Venom. Story. EVER.

And if Spidey's not your thing, here's a really great fic about Tobias, Ax and Elfangor. The author has more great Ax stories on her site, including a Cassie/Ax, if anyone's interested.

Happy reading, everybody! I'm off to go write Spider-Girl fics and work on my Marco/Ax stuff for 1sentence.

ETA: An interesting essay speculating about Venom's origins. Borrows a little too much from Star Trek for my tastes (yes, I am vastly ignorant of the Trek, feel free to throw rocks at me) but the main idea has potential. Oh man, I'm going to end up writing Venom fanfic. I'd much rather write about clones. =/

PS: OH SHIT, IT'S DOCTOR TRAN! NSFW.

me-sense:  hungry
music: Boogiepop Phantom - Mirai Sekai Maruhi Club

So, yeah. Confession time.

I think you should all know something. I hate each and every one of you, with every fiber of my being. If I could, I would sneak into your homes and rape and pillage and burn things. Especially burning, because fire is pretty. I would destroy everything that is precious to you. Especially your Animorphs books. Which reminds me, don't any of you people have lives? I mean, when I was getting to know you all, I kept thinking "There's no way these people can really be so obsessed with kids books, and video games, and comics, and celebrities and all the LAME STUPID, STUPID, STUPID SHIT? Is there? Oh god, is there?" (And why are so many of them gay?)

I wanted to believe it was just a clever, geekish facade. That perhaps you were all coming off a little strong in your various obsessions, just so unbelievably glad to find people with common interests. (Though why you'd be interested in this shit, I have no idea.) But no, my short interweb life has taught me one thing: You are all fat, stinky, pimply idiots who live in your mother's basements, jacking off to cartoons and children's literature.

At first, I was going to keep you all on my friends list out of morbid amusement. I knew it was wrong to laugh at such sad sacks of humanflesh, yet, your pathetic little lives made me chuckle after my long days of making love to sweaty, attractive young men. In various positions at various hours of the day, I might add. Possibly for cash, but I'm not supposed to mention that legally. ANYWAY.

I am leaving the internet forever.

BECAUSE I'M MAD AS HELL AND I CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE! I CAN'T STAND READING ABOUT YOUR "SQUEE" AND YOUR "MEMES" AND YOUR GODAWFUL FANFICS. BY THE WAY, WHO THE FUCK WRITES FANFIC? I STOLE ALL MINE FROM THIS SAILORSUN CHICK. SHE WAS AWESOME. ANYWAY, I'M DONE. DONE, DO YOU HEAR ME, DONE?

Sorry if I've hurt your feelings by saying this, but I just couldn't hold it in anymore. You see, I'm dying of cancer.

Love,
The Nix

PS: I fucking hate Marco/Ax.

I almost Aristocrats'd you all, but I pussied out halfway through writing it.

me-sense: honest
music: Barenaked Ladies - A

WHEE!

Okay, off to shower now.

ETA: It's an RPG journal, so put your comments here instead of there if you have any. Thanks.

me-sense:  excited
music: Escaflowne - Bird Song

I'm going to start a meme! Let's see if it spreads.

1. List five of your fandoms.
2. Ask your friends list which character in each fandom they think you're most like.
3. Do the same when/if your friends post this on their LJ.

Five Fandoms

- Animorphs
- Buffy the Vampire Slayer/Angel
- Runaways
- Digimon (01-Tamers)
- South Park

Answer away, minions! XD

me-sense:  contemplative
music: The Colbert Report

So, instead of doing my homework like a responsible adult (it's due today, for crying out loud, and don't admonish me, I'm already doing that myself), I started reading Animorphs #50 so I could get some information on the Auxiliary Animorphs for the Wikipedia article and Animorphs Wiki.

James is even cooler than I remember, for the record, but that's not the part that's freaking me out.

I have plans to also play as RPG Timmy/Tuan (the kid with the speech impediment) when/if this subplot I have planned for the Anomalies RPG ever pans out. Why? Well, I thought it'd be really interesting to play as someone who has a different handicap than my own. Plus, I had some neat ideas about how Tuan/Timmy would communicate since he has problems with speech.

But then I'm re-reading the book and I notice two lines that completely escaped my attention before: "I thought he had cerebral palsy" and "he awkwardly patted her [Collette, I think] with a palsied hand".

I was attracted to the CP character without even realizing it. How's that for freaky? Apparently, I have Palsydar. It would still be an interesting RP experience for me, though, because Tuan/Timmy's condition is so different from my own even though we have the same disability.

And while I'm talking about Animorphs, here's something that I've never been able to figure out, concerning Ax's human morph: I think it changes, at least a little, every time he morphs. I think Marco says something about it one of the earlier books. Either that or he said Ax's human morph looks different every time you look at it. (Which is even weirder.) But I don't really remember this being brought up in other books...did I hallucinate it? Was it a KASU? Am I mixing up fanfic with the books again?

Also, do we know who Ax's human morph most resembles? I've always wondered about that. Even though the idea freaks me out, shipping what I ship, I've always thought the morph would most resemble Marco, if only because Marco and the morph are of mixed race. Wow, that would make sex a relationship pretty weird. Then again, Marco is kind of a narcissist, so maybe it wouldn't be much of a problem.

EDIT: Can anyone think of an young Asian actor/singer/person/whatever I could use for a Tuan/Timmy journal? Um, someone who isn't a J-Pop star, that is?

EDIT x 2: This will be Tuan "Timmy" Insertlastnamehere. Thanks, sarisia! Also, I don't want to say this because I'm afraid I'll get people's hopes up, but I might start taking applications for the RPG this weekend. If I do, there'll be posts about it here and on animorphs, so keep your eyes open.

me-sense:  quixotic
music: Right Said Fred - I'm Too Sexy For My Shirt

So, I think I may have gotten a job and lost it within two days. I'm not exactly sure. My boss didn't say "you're fired", just told me that he'd only be using me when he needed someone to fill in for everyone else. So I guess my job will just be taking even less of my time than I expected.

In other words: CURSE YOU, INABILITY TO DRIVE!

However, this little conversation was priceless:

Boss: You do have a Texas driver's license, right?
Me: Um...no? No, I really don't.

Followed by stunned silence, of course, because everyone in the world can drive! Right? Right! It's not like there's people that aren't a) abled or b) able to afford driving lessons or c) owning a car. That's crazy talk! (Translation: No, I can't drive, because I never got those driving lessons Mom insisted I get, what with my being disabled and all. Why not? We're poor. Also, we don't have a car, so I couldn't learn from at home and/or from a friend anyway.)

On the plus side, though, my boss is giving my application to the editor. So maybe I'll get a job actually writing for the paper. It's a slim chance, no doubt, but it is possible. And I'll be getting a check for the work I did over the weekend. So...not all is gloom, at least not yet.

Anyway, like I said before I decided to edit this post, I'm off to Austin in a few hours. Won't be back 'til Saturday. I can't wait to see the geek in training my little sister, dad, stepmom, and everybody else. Plus, there'll be the annual feeding of Georgia's addiction big 'ol can of olivies. Plus, Austin. I love Austin. I can't wait!

(However, the assignments I still have to finish? They can die. Especially if my editor assigns something over the break, because then I will be forced to kill her horribly.)

Also, because I love pushing crack: Kenny and Kyle from South Park, as bishounen. Utena-style bishounen (I'm not yanking your chain, check out the art) and really good fanfic about Drode.

Have a great holiday, all!

Random factoids about myself and 'ships in Animorphs that I'm going to pretend people care about:

- Before I went on the 'net to hunt for spoilers, I was convinced that Rachel/Marco was going to be canon and Rachel/Tobias would be the subtext couple. Imagine how much I squeed when I found out the truth.

- I am a closet Ax/Rachel shipper.

- Sometimes I really want to write an Ax/Loren because I think it'd be interesting, and can you imagine the angst?

- I think I would like Marco/Tobias a lot more if people didn't write Tobias as this weak wimpy kind of guy. After all, they are the two characters that I have the easiet time buying as bisexual. It's just that in my head Tobias doesn't act on those feelings because he had Rachel, and he doesn't feel the need to be public about his sexuality. (Okay, and I think Ax's human morph is bi, but I don't want to get into another crazy discussion about alien sexuality.)

- I love Rachel and I love Marco, but I'm always a little sad when they get paired up, because I think a real romantic relationship wouldn't (and maybe couldn't?) be as strong as their friendship. R/M is 100% my One True Friendship. However, I do think Marco's one-sided crush is canon. They are Buffy and Xander, don't even deny it.

- I can't for the life of me figure out why people never pair Cassie up with Tobias or Ax. Especially Tobias, because I can see a lot of potential for that after Rachel's death.

And now I end this silly entry and go back to my graphic arts assignment. Ta.

Oh right, the Auxiliary Animorphs totally got a good representation in the books. Look at them, those holy saints of disability, sacrifing their lives for the Animorphs! No, there's nothing explotative about introducing a bunch of disabled kids for a plot point, hardly mentioning them for two books, and then killing them all. Every. Single. One.

Sometimes fandom really makes me want to cry.

(I will eventually have a post about real life, because things are happening there, but I'm too lazy to write them.)

PS: Fortunately, I have root beer flavored ice cream in my mouth. That cheers me up.

I need a new icon. I need to turn in my article. I also need to pee. Very badly.

But I just want to play around the 'net. So what else is new?

News on the Animorphs RPG...it should be finished and taking applications sometime today or tomorrow. I'll be busy on Friday, so I may not be able to respond to applications and assign characters until this weekend, but yeah...them there's the stats.

Oh! And I joined a community for, well, possibly the geekiest reason I could've joined a community for. I'm getting nostalgic for my Mary-Sue. Okay, more for the community that spawned said Sue, but I also miss the Sue. Is there some way I can blame this on hormones?

For the record, the RPG is about 85% off the ground. I just need to finish Visser Three and Taylor journals, then the main journal for the RPG, and start advertising.

Also, I added some more Jake-ish and Ax-ish icons to the Jake and Ax journals. (Particularly fond of the Paranoid!Jake, the ShirtMunching!Ax and FunnyFaces!Ax, because OMGSOCANON.)

Oh yeah, all those things I said about going to bed soon? Silly you for believing them. Silly me, too. Should've known I couldn't keep a regular sleep schedule for a whole week. That's madness!

So, yeah, I think I'm halfway to starting an Animorphs RPG. I am the biggest loser ever.

But, shock, gasp, surprise! If I do play, I'm not playing as Ax. I already claimed one of the journals I've made, but it is not Ax-Man's. I'm not telling whose it is, though.
The only problem is figuring out what to call the game. Anomalies was already taken. (maybe _anomalies_ isn't?) Oh, okay, there's also the problem of getting people who'd be willing to play, but I'll handle one problem at a time.

I want to make Animorphs RPG journals. I don't want to play in them/with them/whatever, I just want to make them. And then lease them to the public for playing purposes. What the fuck is wrong with me?

In other news, got a bunch of interviewing done today. Good for me. I really hope this article gets itself in the paper, though I doubt it will.

=( That makes me make sad faces, as you can see. Articles about accessibility services are newsworth, damn it. Do you hear me, journalism teacher? It's newsworthy! Even if they call them disAbility services, which irritates the hell out of me, it's still newsworthy!

Off to go read and write, before I do crazy things like make Animorphs RPG journals.

PS: I want to go see Serenity, but I don't think it's showing here.

PPS: Yes, I'll do an entry on SEEING GEORGE CARLIN. Just not right now.

So. After I mention in animorphsfanfic that I don't like fics that use rape as a romantic device, I get a bunny for a Melissa/Tom fic that has rape in it.

Very funny, brain. Except not.

It's still a good idea for a story, though, if not particularly pleasant...maybe it's a good thing my laptop is broken right now.

However, I pimp this awesome Marco/Ax smutfic to the masses. lizzypaul rocks my socks. There's also an interesting discussion going on about Andalite sexuality in the comments, if you're interested.

Anyway, today's lesson? Bitch a lot about the kind of fanfic you'd like to see, and lo, it shall appear. Hopefully.

So, instead of doing my schoolwork like a responsible college girl, I was surfing this forum to try and find an interesting discussion to link to for the maybe-in-the-works Animorphs fandom newsletter.

I may have found something newsworthy, but that's not the important part of this story.

The important part of the story is this thread, where some guy starts talking about his plans for a post-series fanfic. And what does the discussion turn to?

Guess. C'mon, guess.

Marco/Ax. That's right, minions. Within two pages, the discussion turns to crazy fangirls and their icky, icky slash. I have broken fandom, and I am proud.