I... am very sleepy.

I... am working longer than planned.

I... have thought it over and am probably moving this journal to InsaneJournal after week. I will also be splitting up my journals. One for fandom, one for personal stuff, and one for fanworks. I'll post links here to the new entries from now on.

I... forget what I was going to say here.

So, like, last night I couldn't sleep. And because I'm me, this obviously meant that the solution was to write fanfic until I passed out or something. Right? Okay, so I tried doing that.

And once again my Elfangor and Ax plotbunnies refused to write themselves in a way that was not total suck. (Although I think I may have finally figured out a solution to that.)

So then I decided I'd just switch fandoms totally and write some silly fic about various people flirting with Darkdevil because flustered violent vigilantes are win. Right? Okay, right, so then I tried to do that. Then somehow it instead morphed into this epic fic series of how, instead of being flirted at, Darkdevil makes friends with half of the MC2 by being an antisocial woobie. (Shut up, it's my fic, it can work like that.)

Then after having spent almost all night writing most of the first chapter, my computer froze. In an AWESOME MOVE OF AMAZING INTELLIGENCE I didn't save the damn thing. Not even once. I did, however, manage to re-write about half of it! So hurrah for me.

Still, I can't help but feel like I should've worked on my "Victorious kills all the Runaways and Gert angsts about it" epic instead.

An-y-way, I really need to get ready and go to work. Ta-ta!

Also, random fandom stuff! If you didn't know this was going to be in a list format, you haven't been paying attention.

- I am trapped in TV Tropes. Send help.
- I love Lovely Complex! I wish there were more snarky and adorable (snarkadorable?) series about short guys and tall girls.
- I started really playing FF7 for the first time. I'm not sure I can stop.
- It's really frustrating to want to write fic about Elfangor and Ax's childhood and hating every single story you've tried to write about it. :/
- Spider-Girl's 10 year anniversary issue comes out today! ♥ My local comic store won't have it, of course, but still.
- I am loving the flood of old-school Spidey scans pouring into scans_daily.
- The new Buffy comics are just cementing my theory that Faith's bi. Also, ♥ Buffy comics.
- I still love Utena. So, so much. So, so glad I finally watched it.
- Surprisingly, the same goes for Evangelion. Sort of. Mostly.
- Really looking forward to finding out what anime series my sister likes.
- Almost everyone I know has been reminding me that I need to watch Heroes someday, but these same people also keep complaining about the second season. So, friends list, what do you think I should do?

First, a meme:

Comment with the name/title of a fandom I'm aware of, no matter how obvious you think the answers will be, and I'll reply you with the relationships -canon or not - from it I ship. I'll give favorite romantic relationships as well as favorite platonic ones. Also, you're free to reply in subthreads and ask me why I ship or don't ship something.

Second, random fandom meta:

( Spider-Girl meta, sort of. )

First, a meme snagged from trelali.

1. Comment with any ship [or character] from a fandom that you know I like, or at least have some knowledge about.

2. I will ramble for about 100 words (I may go over a bit) about the aforementioned ship. This may be incoherent gushing or exclamations of disgust, depending on what it is.

3. Put this on your LJ, if you are so inclined.

Second, for those of you who were wondering if I died or something...nope! Unfortunately, studies have proven that I'm like a cockroach. I even have feelers! I was/am just ambushed by a lot of work. Hurrah! Projects, papers, articles, and homework due next week. Oh, I'm so excited. Can you tell?

Aaand -- happy birthday, mom. I wuv ooo.

So. Instead of sleeping at a decent hour, I figured I'd spend a few hours doing some heavy editing to the Auxiliary Animorphs article at Wikipedia. It's silly, I know, but I feel like I accomplished something. I just get so tired of seeing them next to nothing about them on fansites. I'd like people to know a little bit more about them. They were interesting characters...for about a book.

Bah. I really need a "We were good, we were brave, we mattered." icon for the Aux. Anis.

In happier fandom news, A BUTTLOAD OF ALIAS ICONS. CLICKY CLICKY SNAG SNAG. (The comic -- click here for info.) Also, I finally got the latest issue of Runaways and my Runaways and Spider-Girl digests. Reviews later.

Also, I finally got around to reading Rolling Stone's excellent article on the Duke rape case, and I'm going to try and finish their article on the 2004 election before I go to bed. Thoughts later.

G'night.

PS: I actually made the icon a few weeks before. I just forgot to upload it to my account.

Four things:

1. I'm going to try and finish my 1sentence Marco/Ax stuff on, oh, zero sleep? I'm certain the results will be hilarious.

2. I'm kind of stuck on a fanfic idea. Fellow Ani-fans, how do you think Estrid would react to being ordered to go back to Earth?

3. Just finished reading all of the Venom arc in Spider-Girl. Instead of making me want to write May-Venom fanfic, which is the effect I assumed said reading would have, now I just want to write about Darkdevil and Doc Magus having Big Gay Mystical Adventures.

4. I can't watch the Spider-Man 3 trailer because my Quicktime is broken. QUICKTIME, I HATE YOU SO.

So, yeah. Confession time.

I think you should all know something. I hate each and every one of you, with every fiber of my being. If I could, I would sneak into your homes and rape and pillage and burn things. Especially burning, because fire is pretty. I would destroy everything that is precious to you. Especially your Animorphs books. Which reminds me, don't any of you people have lives? I mean, when I was getting to know you all, I kept thinking "There's no way these people can really be so obsessed with kids books, and video games, and comics, and celebrities and all the LAME STUPID, STUPID, STUPID SHIT? Is there? Oh god, is there?" (And why are so many of them gay?)

I wanted to believe it was just a clever, geekish facade. That perhaps you were all coming off a little strong in your various obsessions, just so unbelievably glad to find people with common interests. (Though why you'd be interested in this shit, I have no idea.) But no, my short interweb life has taught me one thing: You are all fat, stinky, pimply idiots who live in your mother's basements, jacking off to cartoons and children's literature.

At first, I was going to keep you all on my friends list out of morbid amusement. I knew it was wrong to laugh at such sad sacks of humanflesh, yet, your pathetic little lives made me chuckle after my long days of making love to sweaty, attractive young men. In various positions at various hours of the day, I might add. Possibly for cash, but I'm not supposed to mention that legally. ANYWAY.

I am leaving the internet forever.

BECAUSE I'M MAD AS HELL AND I CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE! I CAN'T STAND READING ABOUT YOUR "SQUEE" AND YOUR "MEMES" AND YOUR GODAWFUL FANFICS. BY THE WAY, WHO THE FUCK WRITES FANFIC? I STOLE ALL MINE FROM THIS SAILORSUN CHICK. SHE WAS AWESOME. ANYWAY, I'M DONE. DONE, DO YOU HEAR ME, DONE?

Sorry if I've hurt your feelings by saying this, but I just couldn't hold it in anymore. You see, I'm dying of cancer.

Love,
The Nix

PS: I fucking hate Marco/Ax.

I almost Aristocrats'd you all, but I pussied out halfway through writing it.

me-sense: honest
music: Barenaked Ladies - A

I'm going to start a meme! Let's see if it spreads.

1. List five of your fandoms.
2. Ask your friends list which character in each fandom they think you're most like.
3. Do the same when/if your friends post this on their LJ.

Five Fandoms

- Animorphs
- Buffy the Vampire Slayer/Angel
- Runaways
- Digimon (01-Tamers)
- South Park

Answer away, minions! XD

me-sense:  contemplative
music: The Colbert Report

Notes for the Day

TO SELF: Stop this beating yourself up shit, it's not going to help anything. Get some sleep and study your ass off tomorrow. You really can focus long enough, and not be compelled to waste your time doing obsessive-compulsive crap on the interwebs. I promise.

TO CATS: Felines of the house, you are all fed and watered and well-cared for. Your litter-box is clean and your masters are not stopping your big incestuous orgy. (Incestivus?) We even gave you kitty marijuana today -- so chill the fuck out!

TO THEFANLISTINGS.ORG: There is too a relationship between Fred and Illyria.

TO FANFIC AUTHOR: When you post an AU about Melissa and David being part of the original Animorphs, I want to read it. I want a story. I want to know why Melissa is Princess Melissa. I want to know why Melissa and Cassie aren't friends with Rachel anymore. I want to know where Jake disappeared to. I don't want continous dialog with no description whatsoever, it makes me a sad panda.

TO SELF, AGAIN: Write said author a review. Ask them to write a real story about this, please. Also, pay attention when the author says their story is a transcript, Dorkface.

TO FATHER'S FAMILY: Your game playing ways amuse me.

TO SELF, YET AGAIN: Take pride in the fact that you made Final Fantasy fans out of your sister, stepmother, and father. Booyeah, baby.

TO SELF, NUMERO QUATRE: Watch more House. Continue fangirling over characters with canes, it's good for you.

TO SELF, FIFTH VERSE SAME THE FIRST: Don't start looking for Kim Possible fanfics just because you used the word "Booyeah". No, don't. Stop giving into temptation right now.

me-sense:  silly and  sleepy
music: Fridge Humming

Two fandom memes before bedtime. =) Snagged from perpetual_poetand moriath.

MEME THE FIRST!

Tell me of a fandom you know I know of and I'll tell you:

1. The first character I first fell in love with
2. The character I never expected to love as much as I do now
3. The character everyone else loves that I don't
4. The character I love that everyone else hates
5. The character I used to love but don't any longer
6. The character I would shag anytime
7. The character I'd want to be like
8. The character I'd slap
9. A pairing that I love
10. A pairing that I despise

MEME THE SECOND!

1. Post a list of 10 of your favorite fandoms.
2. Have your friends list guess your favorite character from each fandom.
3. When guessed, bold the line and write a sentence about why you like that character.

1. Animorphs
2. Digimon (any season but Frontier)
3. Angel
4. Buffy
5. Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy
6. Harry Potter
7. Runaways
8. Law & Order: SVU
9. Futurama
10. Sailor Moon

Feel free to participate in both, either, or none of these.

me-sense:  dorky
music: CNN Headline News

Awesome meme snagged from trelali.

If you read this, if your eyes are passing over this right now, (even if we've never spoken) please post a comment with a COMPLETELY MADE UP AND FICTIONAL memory of you and me.

It can be anything you want - good or bad - BUT IT HAS TO BE FAKE.

When you're finished, post this little paragraph on your blog and be surprised (or mortified) about what people DON'T ACTUALLY remember about you.

Also, yeah, I'm doing that Christmas wish-list meme. But because I have hangups about people spending money on me, I'm just asking for fandom related stuff, so your wallets need not fear.

( Things I'd like for X-Mas )

Feel free to do or write any of them, or do or write none of them. I don't really care.

Oh right, the Auxiliary Animorphs totally got a good representation in the books. Look at them, those holy saints of disability, sacrifing their lives for the Animorphs! No, there's nothing explotative about introducing a bunch of disabled kids for a plot point, hardly mentioning them for two books, and then killing them all. Every. Single. One.

Sometimes fandom really makes me want to cry.

(I will eventually have a post about real life, because things are happening there, but I'm too lazy to write them.)

PS: Fortunately, I have root beer flavored ice cream in my mouth. That cheers me up.

So. After I mention in animorphsfanfic that I don't like fics that use rape as a romantic device, I get a bunny for a Melissa/Tom fic that has rape in it.

Very funny, brain. Except not.

It's still a good idea for a story, though, if not particularly pleasant...maybe it's a good thing my laptop is broken right now.

However, I pimp this awesome Marco/Ax smutfic to the masses. lizzypaul rocks my socks. There's also an interesting discussion going on about Andalite sexuality in the comments, if you're interested.

Anyway, today's lesson? Bitch a lot about the kind of fanfic you'd like to see, and lo, it shall appear. Hopefully.

So, instead of doing my schoolwork like a responsible college girl, I was surfing this forum to try and find an interesting discussion to link to for the maybe-in-the-works Animorphs fandom newsletter.

I may have found something newsworthy, but that's not the important part of this story.

The important part of the story is this thread, where some guy starts talking about his plans for a post-series fanfic. And what does the discussion turn to?

Guess. C'mon, guess.

Marco/Ax. That's right, minions. Within two pages, the discussion turns to crazy fangirls and their icky, icky slash. I have broken fandom, and I am proud.

Oh man, I can't believe I just thought of this, but...yeah. There needs to be an Animorphs fandom newsletter. I know there used to be one, Ani-News, but that thing is long dead. And the ones I have come across (like daily_snitch and the_cortex) are really cool.

Except that it's Animorphs fandom. So, one week (or day, but I am thinking this would be better as a weekly letter) there could be lots of news, and then the next...nothin'. =(

But it's still a good idea!

**waffles, frets, is generally indecisive**

I've got to stop participating in threads in animorphs. Because everytime I do, all my old plotbunnies keep nibbling at me. And they're thirsty bloodsucking little bastards.

If this continues, the Infested!Ax and Resurrected!Rachel plot bunnies will actually get written. Because apparently they have lives of their own.

Damn it, fandom. I wanted to work on my original stories.

EDIT: Oh, and don't think I don't remember I have this huge AU epic unfinished. Oh screw that sleeping I was planning on doing, tonight shall be a night for writing. Or at least poking the bunnies before I sleep (then awake to write).